I Have A New Provider

I had a most wonderful visit with a new provider—A psych provider. She is a psychiatric nurse practitioner. The reason why I am seeing her is specifically to get a letter of recommendation from a competent mental health provider for vaginoplasty surgery. WPATH’s Standard of Care (SOC) recommendations for this surgery includes two letters from […]

Legal Name Change is on Its Way

Well, I have been contemplating making a legal name change for some time. It wasn’t a priority when I first started transitioning last July. I guess the stimulus for thinking about it was the stronger dysphoria over having to use my birth name at times after I started cross hormone treatment in April. I say […]

A Quadruple Play

This day has been mind blowing. I am on gender cloud 9 x 9. In order of appearance: I saw my roommates presenting as woman for the first time. I am rarely there because I am practically over my girlfriend’s 24/7, but I went to pick up my new picture state ID card. The card […]

Earning It

Okay, on one of the trans sites I belong to there was a poll asking if you woke up as the opposite sex would you love it or hate it? I vote yes to love it. I also commented that to have female primary sex parts without surgery would be good. After some more thought […]

An OMG Times Infinity

That is oh my goodness. I made a phone call to a transgender surgery center today after finding out the closest surgeon doesn’t except my insurance. They only work with my secondary, and they won’t accept it the because of the primary, something about state rules. Initially, I was devastated. Every other emotion was just […]

It’s a Name Thing – 2

Here I am again complaining about my name usage. I first wrote about issues connected with my name back last October in It’s a Name Thing. Back, then not a lot of people knew I was Stephie instead of my birth name (which I am now not using even to refer to me at all do […]

It’s Me

I have been thinking of late about how much more I feel like myself (some would say “true” self) since I began my transitioning to live my life as a woman. It is still surprising to me how much progress I continue make in my transitioning (My Amazing Progress as of 2/16/20). I have started […]

It’s a Voice Thing

“The voice.” Not the TV singing talent show, but an early episode of Doc Martin, where Doc Martin calls a patient’s possible throat cancer case “the voice.” The patient was a singer composer. I don’t and can’t sing, but my voice has become just as important to me as a singer’s would be to them. […]

Not Now (Revisited)

Back in September I wrote a post about things that I told myself “not now.” I thought it might be good to look back on this post and see what happen with the not nows I discussed. These not nows were going out with makeup and a wig dressed in obvious feminine clothing, coming out […]

My First Visit to the Endocrinologist

My last post was about a HRT† recommendation letter I received from my therapist. In this post I will try to describe my actual first visit to the endocrinologist. First I was nervous as all get up this morning. I have dealt with a lot of anxiety in the past, but got over it about […]