Am I Beautiful?

Some seem to think so. Two people anyway.

The first was my first date (still a post to come) on the 12th of November. I met her (a trans femme CD) in the hotel lobby where she was staying. I was sitting there made up with a femme knit cap with crossed legs. I stood up to greet her and gave her a kiss on her cheek. Right after that she said, “Stephie, your beautiful.” This melted me right then and there.

The second incidence was at the program I go to for my mental health about a week later. After eating my lunch in the kitchen I went into what I call the big room for announcements and sat two chairs away from this ciswoman. She looked over and said, “you look beautiful.” My mind went wow. Wasn’t expecting that at all.

Both of these times I had my makeup on and femme head wear.

So the first time was to be expected (although I was really not) from a date and someone who herself has feminine feelings. I think we gurls give each other some slack, so I might be prone to discount her statement, even at the same time appreciating it deeply. The comment coming from the ciswoman was totally unexpected. She did know that I was a transwoman, but still it was said with such candor and what I took as sincerity that I took it as an honest opinion.

Now I don’t see myself as beautiful, or at least not on the outside. But these I believe where honest appraisals of my looks. So, am I beautiful? There are two people in this world that say so. I will leave it at that.